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Mr. Th. Hogg helpd me much in stirring up against drowsiness, wandering, and aversnes. 22.—This day the pain increasd. . . . I took garlick, and vomited. The Bishop cam and saw me, and spak sound words. I was in som strait whether to desir him to pray; yet the Lord rid me of that doubt, and movd him to goe in haste. But I would hav heard him, and joind with him; but glori to Him that rid me! Yong Leathin was with me. 23.—Die Dom. I did mak use of the spirit of salt, of the urin of a hee goat kild, of the blood of the goat distilld. Ther cam away smal stons and shells. . . . Mr. Tho. Hogg askd me, If I found not the truth of that word, “I will not leav thee,” &c. I could not answer. Alac 1 I was a fals witness. . . . Mr. Ja. Urquhart was with me, and comfortabl to me in my deadnes. This night last I slept not weil, yet with small pain, and had liberti to lie on ani syd or back. Spini did visit me in the morning. I heard great noic of the fleets fighting at sea. The king had raisd the Parliament of England, and it was thoght they would hav questiond the indulgenc. 25.—Mr. Tho. Ros” was with me this day. I made not the use of his compani which I oght to havdon. . . . The M” of Salton and Mr. J. Buchan wryt to me anent ther effairs with Grant. Mr. Rob. Dunbar did visit me. . . . I was sharp and bitter with Mr. Th. Ros, for his and others too great strictnes and censuring others; and I desir quhen I hav don to censur my self, and be humbld. 26.-Die Dom. This day Mr. Th. Ross exercisd in the hous. He designed to keip us from the parish worship, which made him draw his exercis to the greater lenth. I did, on the other part, desir to keep up the form of publick worship, albeit we had little mor then the form. Mr. Tho. did exercis again, quhen they were gone to the public, in my chamber. 28.—I heard my cousen, Milton, had taken journey to Aberdeen, on the Lord's day, from his oun hous. I desir to be duli affected with it. The Ladi Westfield and others wer heir this night. 30.-My brother to return south this day. Albeit I hav missing of him, yet I yielded to it. Let the Lord ordour it unto good. I found natural tendernes, but that is not grac. . . . Mr. Wil Falconar did visit me, but I did not intertain ani good purpos with him.
* Mr. Thomas Ross, minister of Tain, was ejected in 1662.
31.—Coll. Innes was heer, and I spok with him of his outward condition. He told me that one Mr. Robert Lockhart had fallen on Cesnock, and almost kild him. I desird to be exercisd with this: that it stands with the Lord's wise governing of the world, to suffer an Abel to fal in the hands of Cain. June 2–Die Dom. I found I could not goe to the publick worship; and I cald for Mr. Tho Ross that I might hav his compani to pass the Sabbath. About 9 of the clock I sensibli found the stons plump doun throgh the uriter to the bladder, and I spak litl of it, and retain the urin, and drank garlick posset, Rhenish wyne, and spirit of salt, and oil. The ston fell in the yard, and the water stopd. I prest, but noe water; and had much pain. . . . The Lord stopd the passages of natur, and opend them again. My pain was great in the coming away of the ston, but not so painful as it was in the year 1666. At last the Lord made way, and ther cam one ston of a great bignes, and 3 less, and 40 small stones. I desir to reckon this day, amongst the days, and to put it up and record it with 28 April, 1666. . . . I had a mighty press for water, but in vain. The press of urin broght a constant press of the bellie. Mr. Tho. Ross did sit up til midnight with me; then I lay doun and slept an hour or therby. The press for urin reneud, but al passage was shut; pain did ouerwhelm; and after I cried, and lookd up som hours, and was fainting, and giuing ouer, and the hart failing, unexpectedli, about 4 in the morning, ther cam away another ston of a greater bignes then ani that ever I past. . . . I desir to add this day to my calendar, and to the deliuerances of 28 April, 1666, and other deliuerances. This deservs to be recorded, so mani stones. 4.—I had som health, and walkd out. But soon doe I forget. Yong Cromarti cam heir, and Mr. Urquhart, the minister. I spok sharpli to him, for his travelling on the Lord's day. I found him a yong man poisond with unsound principls and vaniti; yet I desird him to worship in the famili, and he had words and conceptions. Lord! Thou knows the hart. But I was readi to stumbl. Lord! guid and uphold me. I was not unwilling to let them goe. . . . Grant can heir, and Leathin, and spok of ther effairs with me. Mr. James Urquhart cam heir; and he conferd with me, and enquird what asistance I found in my latest trial. I told him, I had to “sing both of merci and judgment.” 5.—Mr. Thos. Ros cam heer, and visited me, and acknowledgd the Lord with and for me. He observd, that the best gardens would soon overgrow with weeds, if neglected, and if the Mr. and gardner be slothful: so of churches and souls. We observd how short qhuil ani church retains puriti and power of doctrin and discipline. . . . He said, We had maiter of joy in that noe church had bein lykus, a Nation given up to God in a Covenant. I said, Other churches that had not an, or so an express covenant, wer nothing short of us, and exceeded us in zeal, lov, fervenci, suffering for Christ, which ar the most material parts of religion: other churches have affoorded mor martyrs, witneses, and had indured mor then we, as, Asia, Germany, England, Franc, Low Countries, &c.; and ther was a flash of affection, but much mixtur in our covenant ingadgments. Let not the Lord imput sin. We spok of, Whither now the saints hav ground to beleev and expect certain events and particulars, seing we hav no expres warrand from the word, or immediate revelation: The general promises ar to be laid hold, and rested in ; but as to particulars, with submission and referenee to his wil, and wisdom onli, and we cannot determine on particulars. He said, If a person or church wer in that sam fram and fitness, they might expect that sam event and ishu that Christians had gotten befor. I denied this: souverainti and wisdom is not tied. Heaven, Christ, and glori will mak up all. We cannot limit to a less tim than eterniti and his wil. I heard of the troubl which the poor countre is liabl to by thes soldiers and musterings, and how litl feeling they hav of it that ar our governors. 6.—Mr. John Falconar prayd in the famili. I did sie weak gifts; but, Lord! keip from despising, or yet indiscerning. 9.—My son and Coll. Innes went to hear one of the nonconformists. I heard Mr. William, but cold and dull did I find the word from him. Lord! teach me to consider this aright, and to mak a right use of it. 10.-I visited the E. of M., and took leav. He was going south to the parliament. I heard of the conflict by sea betwix the English and French with the Dutch. . . . 1 heard that D. of Buckingham and Latherdal wer in ill favour with the English. 11.-This evening Jhon Brodi and Eliz” Forbes wer maried in my hous. This is a tym for brid and bridgroom to com out of ther chalmer and mourn. I mentioned them to God. Mr. Will. Falconar cam up with us, and alac' so dri as I found him. 29.—I heard of Mr. Wm. Falconer's sicknes, I desird to be directed what to doe as to him, and what this may design towards me. I found him sick, and he exprest with much tendernes his respect to our holi reformers, Wels [Welsh], Davison, Knoks, Caluin, Wishart. I said, Thes men, and ther doctrin, and the causes of ther suffering, ar forgotten. I spok to him as the occasion alloud. But he did takwith no guilt. Juli 1–. . . I was doubtful if I should goe to Blarie's burial, or goe East, or if I should mak use of the well at Dippill. I depend on Him for guiding. Lord! ouerrul my simpliciti, and my weaknes, and sillines. 2. –I did forbear Blari his burial, and I heard that several honest men did put on mourning for him. My hart did ris at it, and I purposd to lay asid al outward show of mourning at burials, for I sie it prostitut. But Lord! guid my spirit. Mani things arill, and abusd, that I cannot mend. 4—I heard of the sadd newes from Holland; the French king taken ther touns, quhair he did set up mass: that som wer troubld about papers directed from Holland. 1. Isie the confusions great; a dark cloud on the poor kirk of God evri wher; noe appearanc of deliveri; wicked, and popish, and irreligious men appeared to treat with the French and Hollanders. 5.—Mr. Jhon Stewart and Mr. Ja. Urquhart cam heir. I find not ani inclination to ..a 6.—Mr. Jhon Stewart returnd. I delt with Mr. Ja. Urquhart to com on the Lord's day to help us; but he declind it. 8.—I purposd eastward to tri the waters at Dippil. I hear by Neil McLean that religion had much liberti in Irland, and was not hinderd. 9.—This day my son went with the L. Grant to ther hous at Bellachastel; and I took journey to the well at Speyside, and was al night at Kinedward. 11.-I did goe earli to the well, and returnd at night to Innes. On the 13 and 14 being the Lord's day, I was at Dippil, and heard Mr. Alo Marshall. The 18 day I cam from the well, being Munday, and helpd somthing at the water of Lossi. I was angri at Petgauni, that he sufferd his men to braik the banks of Lossi, which did indanger the land. I refusd to eat of his meat or goe with him. Let not the Lord imput anisinful humour in this.
22.—This night I purposd to be at Leathin. 23.—I had at Leathin a reasoning with Mr. Th. Ross anent the taking from poperi and idolatrous uses things dedicated thereto. In this I found my vehemenci and passion did master me. I spok irreverentli to him, and with prid. Lord! imput not. I cam to Strathspey this evening, and spok of the L. of Grant's effairs. August 3.-Efternoon, I heard from my brother, that ther was much severiti against privat meetings, Balhousie, Megins, Lady Wigtoun. I desird to be duli affected with this, and with the condition off the poor seikers of God in thes lands and in other places. 4.—Die Dom. Mr. Hugh Ross preachd. I reflected on myself if I did lawfulli hear him; and I desir to examin, and be examind, whether the allowanc be from Thee, and the peac; albeit his gifts be not great, and that he be in the common defection. He spok of the Lord's observing the ways of men, ther sins, ther walking, and therfor we should watch, as approving our selvs to him, being under his eye. I heard that the E. of Murray had gotten sentenc against his mother for 12,000 mk” by year of her liu"[liferent] I desir to know what to judge of this. Let that man's prosperiti be noe snar to him, nor for hurt to others, nor for ani dishonour to Thee and Thy kirk. 7.—The Lards of Innes and yong Ladi cam heir, and dind. They spok of the evels of the tym, and the severitys against privat meetings. 10.—Mr. Jhon Cuming was heer this night, being to preach to us the next day. He prayd in the familie. I fear to censur and judg rashli, and I fear not to discern and judg. His .* I desir to be taght and informd anent this. Oh let God rais up faithful and abl teachers in his church, and pitie the want of such. What great differ is ther in the gifts of thes that ar laid by, and thes that ar keipd and admitted 12.-I did this day begin to drink at the well of Riuus [Rives]; som effect it had as to appearanc. I past this day ther, and made use of golfing for exercis of the body. Whil I drink, let this be noe snar to me. . . . 17.-Iheard from Edinburgh the French taking Groningen, and marching towards Amsterdam: The sufferings of mani honest peopl at Edinburgh. 18.-Die Dom. Mr. Geo. Innes preachd Rev. 3. 1. . . . The preacher had sound things and useful, and praid wel. May not I hear him? Yet he
* Short-hand in MS.