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food and discipline of heart and of the intellect for all future life. She who can banish one shade of anxiety or of sadness from the face of a companion, has done a good deed, and she who has lightened one burden, or poured a single flash of light into the sorrowing heart, will not lose her reward.

It is a mistake to suppose it is best to see how few friends you can make, and how intimate you can become with them. It is the way with school-girls, often, to clan together, to select two or three unspeakably dear and intimate associates, sworn friends whom they will correspond with at least twice a week, all the rest of their lives; and they feel that this is the best way. But I would recommend you to try, not how intimate your friends may be, but how many you can make your friends. Endeavour to live in bright sunshine, not always mourning and trying to feel how unfortunate you have been in your room, in your room-mate, in your teacher, in your studies, in your associates, but how many things you have to make you happy. In your correspondence home, do not try to see how doleful

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a story you can make out, what sufferings you have to undergo, what sacrifices you are making, and how you are counting the weeks and the days, the hours and the minutes, when the prison-doors will be opened, and the poor sufferer may again set her face towards that paradise, home, which was any thing but a paradise while she was in it: do not try to see how much romantic suffering you can endure in six months, and strive to make yourself believe that you really are almost sacrificed on the altar of learning; but try to make the beams of the morning, the sweet breath of early flowers, the warm light of the sun, and the beautiful world that surrounds you, all cheer you on in your duties; and let your face carry sunshine into every room that you enter, into every recitation that you make, and into every thing you do. Remember that there are few places in this world where happiness may not be found. But like the gold-dust, it must be first sifted out of the sand, or the rock must be broken, pounded, and perhaps smelted, ere you obtain it. And when found, it is not in great lumps,

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but in grains. So our happiness is made up of grains, which we must pick up particle by particle. In the same way we must impart it. In no situation will you ever have it in your power to add so fast to your capital as while at school. And your social intercourse and habits affect your own happiness, and the well-being of those around you now, and will help to shape your and their happiness, for all the future of your life. Feel that you have not come here to shun responsibility, but to assume it; not come merely to receive good, but also to bestow it; not only to receive smiles, but to scatter them; not alone to be improved, but to aid in improving others. It is not the place to have or to be dolls; but the place and the time to make moral and intellectual greatness the standard, and thus humble the pride; to subdue the temper, and bow the will, and govern the heart, and thus make you tolerable to yourself, and lovely in the eyes of others.

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СНАРТER VI.

TRIALS AND TEMPTATIONS.

New Trials. Better Scholars than you. Friends will be disappointed. Wonderful Blacksmith. No excuse for you. Rock Slates and Sea-egg Pencils. Not too late. So much done. Parents' mistake. A Good-for-nothing Machine. Too great a Difference. The best Response. Letters like Chimneys. Starving Pupil. Genteel Prisons. Why not spend Money? School not for the Rich alone. Daniel Webster's Congratulation. East Winds must come. Coward won the Day.

EVERY situation has its inconveniences, which we call trials; and, of course, every new situation must have new trials. Sometimes these seem heavy because they are new, though in reality they may not be as severe as those we have left behind. At home, perhaps, you had every indulgence; you were petted and caressed, and every

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thing as far as possible was made to bend to your pleasure. But when you reach your place in the school, there is no partiality, no petting your whims, no caressing your wishes. have to take your place among a multitude of your equals, and your place seems a cold one. Their interests are to be looked after as well as yours, and they must receive each as much attention as you do. This is a new trial. It is one that you did not think of, and it meets you many times every day. It is very hard to come to the conclusion that we are of no more consequence than others, and are to receive no more attention.

You have the trial, too, of finding by painful experience that there are others who go before you. They have manners more agreeable, dispositions more mild and winning, memories more retentive, minds that are quicker to seize and understand a subject, thoughts that are brighter, and an imagination that flashes more than yours; you meet with those who have had better early advantages, who were better instructed in childhood, and who, consequently, can better com