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stamp a bias on my soul, and upon my will and affections, which no temptation could ever again, in any the slightest degree, change, to love God supremely, and in every iota to be of one will with him, then to-morrow I should feel myself altogether free, and altogether happy,— and, let the advocates of free-will say what they choose, I should also be altogether good; as to merit, it is a term I have no wish to meddle with. But, Howard, what is regeneration but the beginning of that new bias, stamped upon the soul by the Holy Spirit,-the introduction of a new nature into the soul,

-a necessity to holiness, which shall be made complete in the spirits of the just made perfect.'

I believe the truth is, that as there is but one God, there is, in reality, but one will that can be followed without misery by the whole universe. What, in reality, is the liberty that is contended for? Is it not a power to be of one will

with God, or to be of a different will from God? Was such a power as the last offered, who that had ever known its misery, and escaped from it, would again accept of it? This, I conceive, my dear Howard, is the difference between natural and moral liberty. Natural liberty consists in the freedom of the body to follow the dictates of the soul; moral liberty consists in the freedom of the soul to follow the will of God. When my almighty Redeemer shall have delivered me from that corruption of my nature, which leads me to have a different will from that of God, then, and not till then, shall I feel that I have entered into the glorious liberty of the sons of God.'

‹ Again, dear Howard, I intreat your forgiveness for my unpardonable impatience. Prove to me that you have forgiven me, by telling me any difficulties that arise in your mind while reading

Edwards. I believe he is considered unanswerable.Ever your attached

B. TRAVERS.'

I would have proved my forgiveness by soon again plaguing Travers with difficulties; but the day after I received his letter, I was called into circumstances, in which I, for the first time, really longed for, and attempted to seek, strength from heaven. On that day, the hour in which Travers usually visited me passed, and he did not appear. His society had become the very charm of my existence, and I watched with impatience for his arrival. At last, I was told that his servant wished to see me. I sent for him, and immediately perceived by his looks that something distressing had happened, and desired him to tell me at once what it was. The poor fellow wished to be composed, but though at other times remarkable for a grave steadiness of manner, his feelings overcame him, and he

with difficulty told me that his master had met with an accident, and was severely hurt; but had desired him to come to me himself, and say that he did not suffer much, and hoped I would visit him next day. The man seemed averse to telling me the nature of the accident, but said he had a note from the doctor to my aunt, which would inform me of every thing. I hastened with this note to my aunt. It contained an earnest intreaty, on the doctor's part, that she would go immediately to Mrs Travers, who was, he said, almost distracted; and proceeded to inform her, that Travers, while benevolently inquiring into some grievance complained of by his miners, had himself gone into a newly worked part of a mine; that while there, the miners, in moving a mass of stone from a vein of ore, had from some negligence left so much to the strength of one man, that the stone must have slidden forward, and crushed him to death, had not Travers rushed to his

assistance.

Others instantly followed;

but the exertion Travers made, had been so great, that he had ruptured a bloodvessel in his breast,-had lost a great deal of blood,-and, the doctor added, would require the greatest care and quiet, to prevent dangerous consequences.

My aunt immediately went to Lymecourt; and I followed as soon as I could. The doctor intreated, however, that neither of us should see Travers that night, as it was necessary he should be kept perfectly quiet; and his mother had already disturbed and affected him very improperly, by betraying her distressed feelings.

You will believe, my dear father, that I passed a wretched night. At last, I attempted to pray, and for the first time in my life found support, and calmness of mind, follow in a degree that surprised myself. The Bible now, thanks to my beloved friend, was familiar to me, and I at this time found myself using it as

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