became ethereal, and, a bodiless consciousness, I followed far along the billows the waving light and the weird voice, and entered the depths of ocean. A clear and limitless vision was given me to behold all things; and presently I saw that from the shadow of night we had emerged where sunlight lay upon the deep. Beautiful, unutterably strange and beautiful, were the hues and forms amid the green waters. All around glanced the colors of the sunbow amid groves of coral and crystal halls, and shapes of exceeding loveliness moved through them by the light of their own brightness. It was a world of life. The emerald and ruby rocks were spangled with waving stars; on the sea-forest boughs swung crescent moons; strange, glittering creatures moved habitant in the sparry caves; and all throughout lived a slumbrous melody, like the dying tones of an organ. Death, too, had been there. The pebbly bed was strewed with the wrecks of navies. Uncounted treasures of diamonds and gold lay unhoarded; helmets and swords rested motionless where they fell; and all among the coral groves were scattered the bones of the dead, white and smoothand it was seen, where the maiden lay locked in her lover's arms, by her long hair flowing in threads of amber. Still glided on that guiding light, and louder and sweeter grew that melody of Ocean. Then uprose before me, yet afar, a vast and caverned concave. Crystal were the pillars thereof, gems and pearls were scattered on its pave, and the fretted roof blazed with the diamonds of a world. There were born those solemn harmonies-there moved forms of light, and faces, indistinct but of sad and spiritual beauty, looked forth by the shining columns. Yet nearer came I; and I saw, far within and dim with templed twilight, a throne of ocean-stone, rising with many gleaming steps, and adorned with many rare and marvelous things. Then unembodied voices, I knew not whence, spoke to my spirit.
Why, then, of us seekest thou From sadness relief, Who endure eternal Existence and grief? If with us thou inherit Pain knowing no cure, With us, hapless spirit, Endure! endure !
Hast thou learned all earth's wisdom And magical lore,
That thou seek'st the green ocean
To win for thee more? Oh! know'st thou not, mortal, Aspiring so high,
That knowledge is sorrow, And wisdom a sigh !-- Or seek'st thou more beauty Than earth can bestow, Within the deep waters,
Where bright colors glow- Where strange things are lying Of wonderful hue, And momently changing To tints ever new? But beauty is fleeting
As sound on the wind, Which leaves not a trace of
Its passage behind! And when it has vanished, Remains but a grief, That splendor so lovely Hath being so brief!
Or would'st thou escape from The Present, the Past, In our deep waters viewing Thy dark future glassed? Ah! seek not to double
The woes of life's day- From our ocean-halls haste thee, Oh! haste thee away!
But if thou wilt not stay thy steps Who wanderest here alone, Lo! yonder is our Lord, Behold the throne! Approach-draw near, Nor faint nor fear,
Before his sadly-beaming eyes, But tell thy wsihes in his ear, Which gathereth all the mysteries Of this round, rolling sphere.
Then I looked, and above the shining throne uprose a shadowy and awful form. His presence darkened the green waters around, and the deep-born melodies grew still; and ever it was greater and more awful as I gazed upon it. I drew near, yet unfaltering, and a voice like a forest wind fell upon my ear; and to that voice I answered.
Spirit of Ocean. Erdolph.
What wouldst thou, child of sorrow? Wherefore such ? What countenance hath told thee?
Spirit of Ocean. Erdolph.
Erdolph. Spirit of Ocean.
Doth no sorrow fall But on Earth's children? In thy face I gaze And thou art sad-with a vast tranquil gloom Like some still shadows. Is it, then, that ye In your most secret and unfathomed reign Are pure but joyless?
Seek thou not to read The life of higher natures. 'Tis enough To know thine own immortal misery! I see thee that thou wear'st beyond thy race Inexplicable sorrow. What would'st thou ? Her presence and her long-desired voice. Thou hast not named to me or form or spirit. There are whose presence comes in sudden light And knows no bodily shape; and there be voices That wander, sweet and solitary sounds,
From sphere to sphere, whose nature only One Hath known forever.
Of things made bright and glorious, bring the brightest, Of all created essences that are-
The purest-pure beyond all subtlest thought, And fairest of all forms that ever yet
Spirit of Ocean. Erdolph.
My love was in the Beautiful-adored, Till adoration had in me become Essential and familiar. Nature first
My early friend, my dear and earnest mother, Leading me hourly through her wondrous reign, Filled the deep urn of joy till it ran o'er. Boyhood on infancy, and youth on boyhood, Intensely grew, to feel with deeper sense Th' infinitude of her wild mysteries;
Her whispers were my teachings, stirring more My soul in lonely haunts than loud-mouthed trump The serried soldiers on the front of battle.
I had no life but as I lived in her;
And she did seem to make all hues and forms,
All sounds, all seasons, for my own delight.
The gliding spring, with low and winning voice,
Bearing young leaves and flowers; the strong-soul'd summer Glowing with life, watching the ancient skies, By woods and mighty waters; autumn slow, Tranquilly walking through the faded trees, His still pale empire; and the world of white, When winter came, and o'er the mountains high Flung his cold robe, alike had charms for me. The breaking morn, the noon, the shadowy eve, Silence, and starlight, and the sad, meek moon, Clouds, mountains, winds, and ocean's solemn waste- All these I loved, and in that love did dwell With a most constant worship.
Thou fed'st thy deathless nature!
Yet I grew Restless amid the universe of things; Not that they seemed not glorious as at first, For never to the soul that once hath felt Fades their immortal beauty-but I knew A growing void within I could not fill.
"The beautiful," I said, "is of the mind:
My thought makes all things lovely: lo! there are- From radiant heights of knowledge distant seen- Fields thrice more fair than ever nature shows
To souls untaught, nor can the outward world Give any forms so fair as may arise Within the chambers of our imagery. Let me ascend those heights-let me create These shapes celestial!" So I went aside From the broad world, and in ancestral tower Nearest the stars, while yet my years were few, Became familiar with all forms of thought, All records of all times, all ways of men- Or, if the paths of nature knew my steps,
Spirit of Ocean. Erdolph.
Spirit of Ocean. Erdolph.
Spirit of Ocean. Erdolph.
It was to seek each wild and hidden haunt, Gathering strange wisdom-evermore the while Filling my soul with shapes more beautiful Than e'er yet, born of sunlight and the air, Dwelt in the morning clouds, or, shorter-lived, Had wings among the Hours.
Thou wast not happy! We also know, for ages numbered not, Beauty and knowledge.
Clearly dost thou see The poor conditions of existence. Never Could joy abide with me, but emptiness Within me ached, like the great void of space Before that worlds were made. "Alas!" I said, “I have beheld these fairest things alone! What joy can be to solitary eyes
Looking on nature or the realms of thought :" -Thenceforth, unrestingly, I sought me out Clear intellects and mighty-one by one
I sought them-men whose fiery feet had climbed To dazzling heights of science, and their gaze Attained to widest vision: we became Co-rulers in such high ethereal reign-
Most rare and glittering mockery! Sublimely lived we-loftily and chill
We stood as on the cold and shining top
Of some huge berg above the northern Pole,
Where spreads the pale, thin sky, and streaming o'er
A world of glaciers and the icy sea,
The very light seems frozen. "Not by these
Comes joy!" again I said. "But were there one, The only such-sole reflex of my being!
Not greater need have twin-born stars in heaven To move around each other, and o'ergaze Th' encircling universe by mutual light, Than have two radiant minds to read anew The gifts of knowledge in each other's eyes. And searching?
Long the search and vain as long! Nor on the earth, in vale, or city thronged- Nor in the elements, air, water, fire- Could I this dear Existence ever find.
Within my breast vain visions, fair but fleet, Made ceaseless change of sorrows, but the years Passed over heedlessly as April shadows O'erglide the forest tops nor know what dreams May haunt the gloomy depths.
Thou didst have need To love and be beloved. What scorn had seized thee That no sweet spirit lapped in maiden mould, Appeared thine imaged wish-
I was not of that nature? for with me Beautiful weakness never could have power, And such are all Eve's daughters. None did seem- Thou pausest-and a shade came over thee. For then, even then, one earthly form before me Pale Memory led, for whose sake to have loved, Could I have bent me so, had not been vain ! High-born she was, but of a flower-like pride,
Spirit of Ocean. Erdolph.
Tender as tears-serene in her young grace, And pure as young, and beautiful as pure: Clear-browed Eliria! and her stately mind Had yet such delicate thought, unconscious born, As stirs a spirit new-lighted on the earth, Wondering, o'er-charmed, at every common thing, So moulded was she, and her mind had strength Beyond her equals. But with her, to love Was native as a plant that comes with spring- Suddenly comes and never blooms but once! And Destiny, itself the slave of Chance, Made me to her-what matters it! she died, As dies the Wind-Flower with excess of light, And trembled into darkness! o'er the dust- What tears had'st thou to give?
No more! she sleeps Nor knows how fair between my soul and her Forever rose the Ideal-still forever Changed by the breath of Fancy, as the wind Changes the bright shape of a summer cloud.
'Twas on a day-no moment can have In all duration to forget that day- A summer's day I laid me down to rest
By a cool fountain. Slumber stole upon me, And dreams confused with many images
And shifting scenes. But quickly these were past, And light most magical did shine around, Nor of the sun nor moon, but as the shining Of some large solemn star; and while I gazed In mute astonishment, appeared before me- So fair, so pure, so eloquent with life, What golden pen of angel can describe
That thing of earth and heaven-a chisel'd form That looked embodied light-a countenance Of sad and spiritual beauty, sweet Ineffably, reflecting in its mien
A heaven of loveliness, and mantled o'er With the most holy, bright intelligence
Of deep and starry midnight. Long I yearned To hear a voice from her, but dared not speak Lest I should scare away the gentle vision- I strove to speak, but with a motion slow As ship that sails the sea-yet, ah! too quick For me that wondered after her!-she passed, Leaving a darkness for so much of light! And I awoke to sigh, that I had found And lost again what I had sought so long! But ever from that hour, by night, by day,
In dreams, in reveries, I have beheld
The self-same form and face which did appear By that cool fountain. Yea! all times, all places Have still presented to my mental eye The same sweet image. I have seen it look From heaven's clear mirror; I have seen it glazed Within the running stream, in shady fount, On sleeping lake, on ocean's face, and oft, Full often called and listened for an answer. Thus, ever present with her, yet debarred From converse sweet, I have in midnight vigils Pored over ancient scrolls of wicked lore,
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