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367 licity in refinement, the ambitious in in arrears. I have no relations to fplendor, and the humble in content. claim my consideration. My little ment:-but, as the former are not al. boy was taken from me, as a part of ways attainable, those who aim alone my punishment for the wretchedness I at the latter bid faireft for success. I brought on his unfortunate father. am at present wholly unacquainted Yet that heaven that gave, and dewith this mother, yet I will not scru. prived me of my blessings, well knows ple to affirm, as my opinion, that her the innocence of my intention. I worst errors have no worst source want an opportunity of joy to my than a wrong education. Those, who heart, by becoming the instrument of consider the frippery of dress and the joy to the deserving. On this occaparade of equipage as eflentials, will lion indeed I shall have little to boast ; sacrifice every other consideration to for notwithstanding my happy and ambition's fhrine : nor, indeed, ac unexpected establishment in this socording to the weight externals every ciety, I feel the necessity of a worthy where bear, is it an easy matter to companion, to enable me to support preserve ourselves in some small de those hours, which even the Benevogree froin the contagion. Could you, lent Society can neither fouth nor fofmy sweet Caroline, on an honest re ten: in a word, ladies, it is a genetrospect, entirely acquit your elf ? rous sympathising mind, which in the Was there never a period, when that season of retirement would listen to, little bosom felt unbidden contempt and participate the sad and frequent for the home-spun gown, and an in repetition of, my misery and anguish, voluntary prepoffeffion for the gay that can alone contribute to my peace. embroidery?

Should Lavinia's disposition prove You might, madam, faid Miss Brif. what her language and conduct betow, have made both your question speak it, the accompliments the so and conclusion general; for notwith- modely confesses herself miltrels of, ftanding the advantages I have enjoy. Thall not be unprofitably exercised, ed of precept and example, I have independance thall be hers; a smali frequently been acquainted with the annuity will free her from uncertain. narrow operation you describe. How ty and restraint, and her valuable at{ay you, 'Miss Middleton, added the tachment be my ample compensation, in a lively accent, will you not Nay, farther, í mult intreat, and if I ingenuoully acknowledge the frailties may judge of my friends impreslions rather of your youth than your na- by my own, I shall not be reluctantture?

ly indulged, that however inconsiste Miss Middleton blushed, at once ent her reception as a member may from conscious frailty and resentment. be with the late resolutions of the soWe have all something, madam, re- ciety, yet I may be permitted to inturned the with constrained civility, troduce her to the general acquainto correct ; nor is the want of good cance. nature the least un happy deficiency in Mrs. Milnham smiled -the smiles the female compofition.

of humanity how inexprellibly amiaCan it be necessary at this period, ble! It is impossible, said the, to redemanded Lady Bristow, for me to fule a request urged by such worthy observe, that the Benevolent Society motives. Do with both us and Laviknow nothing of exceptions ? To feel, nia, my dear Mrs. Brereton, what must be to reform. Do not then, will best conduce to your own happiMiss Middleton, pervert the most de ness, and there is no doubt but our apfirable of poffeffione, honest sensibility. probation will be yours.

The unfortunate Miranda, whom Mrs. Lloyd, with her usual vivacifor the future we shall distinguish by ty, now gave a turn to the conversathe name of Mrs. Brereton, begged tion. Here are, said she, my lifterThe might be allowed to give one in members, a large collection of adstance of benevolence the removing dresses and complaints, from ladies on So amiable a creature's difficulries. whose shoulders, by their own conSince the dreadful loss of my hus. effion, the matrimonial yoke sits bu band, you well know, my dear ladies, very uneasy- let us, if posible, said the, my fortune has been greatly foften their burthens.

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July I am afraid, said Mrs. Stanley, we which the ro pathetically laments, it fhall find that the most difficult of all was a confidence in the honour of our undertakings. To strike out the the man on whom the bestowed her vanity, the self-love, the meanness, person and fortune, which produced and the petulance, which gave rise to the former, and an incredulity found. the diffensions in that state, we must ed on a partiality for him alone, that totally subdue the natures we have to incited her to the latter. She had no deal with; and I believe none of us idea that profession and practice could will pretend to be capable of forming be so widely different, or the remon. new creatures.

strances of her relations in his disfa. I would not be serious on the oc vour had operated more powerfully casion, said Mrs. Lloyd, if I could than all his sollicitations to accept him. poffibly avoid it. But is it not won. But however he thought proper to derful that Providence, for the wiseft diffemble in the first instance, when and must hidden purposes, shall bring diffimulation became a virtue, he to an early diffolution the happieft of greatly despised it; when, by an afiunions, and permit mutual tormentors duity calculated to effect, he had ef. to dwell whole years together? If there fected his purpose, the vanity of liis is a gratification for sensibility, it is nature, a cruel, an ungentlemanly the devoting all our wishes, our at. vanity, urged him to triumph. If the tentions, to one constant point the lady's fortune «was, as he politely de. felicity of those we love.

clared, the only object of his withes, The grand basis of matrimonial could he not have enjoyed it without grievances, ' returned Lady Bristow, wounding her by the acknowledg. with a view to dispel the growing me- ment? lancholy of her friend, is the making And yet the weight of the evil, an ill choice. If the principles, the said Mrs. Stanley, will be merely pro capacity, the reputation, or the dir portioned to the manner of sustaining pofition, were allowed to be the criit: whoever is either surprized or be. terion, there would be some prospect trayed into a snare, and instead of of peace; but the captivating charm casting about for the means of extrihas seldom an existence beyond our cating themselves, or the means of own fond imaginations, and the delu. rendering captivity tolerable, will

, fion consequently no sooner ceales, with our compassion, incur at least our than we conceive ourselves deceived, disapprobation. Custom and religr.2injured, and wretched.

tion can make all things supportable, I believe, madam, laid Miss Bril. and if we can but pass through life tow, if that important change of irreproachably, we attain the highett condition was to be duly considered, felicity of humanity. it would be rarely accomplimed. Upon my word, said Mrs. Milnbam The feeling mind meets every day smiling, I do not know whether an with sufficient exercise from foreign unfortunate marriage, to the mind of causes, what then shall we say of vanity, is not an actual gratification ; the wisdom, or temerity, of those, for can a woman ever have to extenwho bare their bosons to the keenest live an opportunity of thining? To thafts of disappointment, apprehen. bear unmerited ill treatment with fion, and anguith? For in that su. propriety, is the most admirable of perior kind of friendthip, to mention lessons, and yet if it is duly confidernothing of the maternal exertions, ed, it is the only remedy ; for fo far whether we are happy; or milerable, from ill-treatment justifying a wife in in our choice, the pain is pretty equal. any one vice, or even a breach of Mortification can wound deep, but decorum, it merely serves to excul, the anxieties of tenderness are little patė the husband from blame, and inferior.

expose the otherwise estimable obje& It is a misfortune, said Mrs. Miln to odium and contempt. ham, that so little principle, genero However just your observation, re. fity, or justice, is to be found in man turned Lady Bristow, we frequently kind. For example, our unhappy find many of our lifter female bure Oxfordshire correspondent, whatever ried into the groffelt extravagance, was her weakness, or folly, both of from the unhappiness of their hua

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369 tions, who appeared all the rest of and as his own income was to the last their days to be incapable of deserting degree limited, his making choice of the path of prudence. To my cer her for a wife, could not be consi. tain knowledge, several have con dered as a prudent step; but she was tracted habits of ebriety, and others, exceedingly agreeable to him, and had

from a notion of retaliating, for a speciousness about her, that bespoke z which I want a name, forfeited every her capable of giving happiness by

pretension to honour, reputation, and her veconomy, industry, and good compaslion.

humour, to any condition. On very But of all the people under the trilling solicitation the condescended sun, said Mrs. Stanley, commend me to accept his offer, Thared his little to your ladies who make a merit of fortune, and gave for a time addin their virtue, and from only acting tional charms to all his enjoyinent. In properly, expect the most unbounded this period of contentinent I was approbation : there is something to brought into existence: my father be. indelicate, as well as despicable, in held me with transports truly paterthese minds, that, to me, the most nal, but my mother, from self attache: unhappy wanderer in the Atreets is ment, and a gaiety of di potition, more meritorious.

which till then had never shewn itIt therefore remains, said Mrs. fell, removed me from her tight, to Milnham, to give our Oxfordshire secure herself from the cares and ato! friend this consolation—that in pro- tentions of infancy. My father's eafiportion to her suffering, her conici. ness of temper would not suiter him ous integrity will support her, and to contend any point, much less was that when the considers the variety of he capable of contending with the wretchedness to which the miserable, woman he loved; therefore, not with if guilty, are exposed, she will con- standing he wished to retain me ungratulate herself for being only unfor- der his roof, he beheld me with a tear tunate, and look forward to that pe-, delivered up to the mercy of a nurse, riod of general release, that will place and conveyed to a distant parish. ber deservings in a molt glorious The neighbourhood was greatly point of view.

disgusted at the pride, or, as they The following letter was now or. called it, want of nature in the wife dered to be read, which terminated of their paftor, and did not long the meeting, and will be answered the scruple to make very free with her ensuing month.

character :-the squire and her were

feen to walk together in some remote To the BENEVOLENT Society. fields; and constructions, the most

baneful to her reputation and my I Am not to be told, that whatever father's peace, were the consequence. for misfortune, indiscretion, or mile their suspicions reached i be wretched Ty, guilt is wholly shut out from all husband's ear, who, enough indolent participation of it. But however in security, was roused to the most your displeasure may be excited at desperate resentment. receiving an address from a guilty

My mother, ladies, the mother of hand, do not refuse to read my itory, your unhappy correspondent, was no as you will there perhaps find some sooner charged with her impropriety, small extenuation of it.

than she became so dead to every My father was a little country vicar, sense of honour and disgrace, as to whole good nature was ever betraying elope ; leaving the man that doated

on her, and the infant who had lo . accident brought him to the acquain many tender claims to her confideraCance of a young woman, who, tho' tion, to all the horrors.of ditress, meanly bori, had been well educated, and the agonies of unmerited infamy.

extremely As for me, I was ler to the manage. plealing. As he found her in a de.

ment of an ignorant, though well pendent fituation, he could not be de. meaning family; but my father, in ceived respečting ber circumstances ; order to secure' himself from selec

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July tions, being never fober, lived only could have subdued the idea of my to the end of the succeeding twelve- being accountable to my children for months.

all the consequences of my indiscreMy father's effects were so inconfi. tion. I had not the resolution to derable, that it was in debate how I forego the guilty commerce; affection, was to be disposed of, when my mo- the tenderelt, the most grateful affeether took upon herself the care of my tion, was the tye. I would not suffer provision and education. I continued him to unite himself to me legally at school till my fixteenth year, when when uncontaminated, and under my I received a visit from a man of then circumstances there was no thinko fashion, who told me he was to con- ing of it. I had now five little chil. vey me home. Inexperienced as I was dren, and all the mother in my heart, in the ways of life and mankind, I when I received a casual intimation, had not the most diftant suspicion of that my, I could not call him his intentions. He conducted me to husband, had thoughts of quitting me. an elegant seat, pronounced me mil I never felt my misery completely tress of all his poffeflions; and, on till that moment: but I had no righi my enquiring into the meaning of his, to complain. I assumed all the reloproceedings, he, in the most tender lution, the composure I was mistress manner possible, confefied to me, that of, to learn from himself what I had my mother had accepted a price for to expect.

to expect. His features spoke the her child's virtue, to relieve herself truth, whilft the language of disfimufrom the evil consequences of guilt lation dwelt on his congue. I made and extravagance.

it my business to acquire information Shocked at this acknowledgment, from another quarter : he was, ladies, I gave myself up for loft. My tears, on the actual point of marrying the my innocence, apparently affected woman of his father's choice, and for him. He begged me to believe him whom I had ever heard bim declare incapable of taking ungenerous ad- the most confirmed averfion. vantages, for notwith tanding I was I disdained all expoftulation with then in his power, I was free ; nor him, converted my posleffions into would he restrain my steps. But money, and, without giving him the where had I to go ? friendless and mi- smalleft notice, left the country. But ferable, I knew not where to seek pro as it was. impossible for me long to. tection! and as he treated me with subGk myself and family on a trife, the kindest, the most engaging refpect, and being well acquainted with the I will not fay I wilhed to leave him. principles of his father, I applied to

This was the rock of my destruc him for confideration : an annuity tion : he offered to marry me. A was instantly appointed me, with man of falhion publickly uniting him. many compliments on my conduct : self to the daughter of an abandoned yet are compliments but poorly calcuwoman, it was not to be thought of. lated to beal the wounded heart. My He told me there was no happiness sweet, my injured children, by their without me. In a word, for i will innocent endearments, give an unnot attempt to palliate, to convince speakable poignance to the distress him I had sensibility, to convince they seek to heal. Where is their him I had gratitude, I proposed to father? has he farsaken both me and him that we thould bind ourselves by a them ? will he never see us more? ne. ceremony that, however sacred, thould ver bless his little prattlers again? till leave him at liberty, in an hour of It is too much, too aggravating of interest of repentance or inconstancy, the natural misery of my condition to to renounce me for ever.

be supported; nor thall I live to see o that he had bad but the good them capable of guarding themselves ness to save me from myself! A pres. against the evils of life. byterian clergyman performed the Is there one favourable, one recoms falle office, and not a thought of the mendatory circumstance of a wretch duties I owed pofterity ever reached like me > But, my good ladies, it is my heart, until I found myself a mo not for myself I plead. Can benevother. For eight or nine years no felis lence refuse to serve the unoffending, city could bave exceeded mine, if I and the helpless ?

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371 I would avoid the curses of my from every horror by which I am op. own 'pofterity; I would have them pressed ; yet I tremble for his share in educated in such a manner, that piety the iniquity. To know my children and refignation might be theirs ; that would adhere to the path I have quit. they might disregard the calamity, ted, to have paid the full price for the infamy I have entailed upon them. him and me, would alone footh me No claim of confanguinity, no claim into com posure. I am not to chuse, to provision; the out.cast, the sport I am not to prescribe. These, these of the happy, and the inconsiderate; are the triumphs, the fruits of guilty and born to bluth at their mother's commerce - to be undone ourselves, name.

and involve creatures yet unborn in Had my sensibility-but it is conti. the dreadful calamity. nued to me for my punishment all I am, ladies, gracious providence the man who Your molt unfortunate was master of my destiny, is exempt And undeserving Penelope.

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Prince Henry

8,000 Princess of Wales

60,000 Princess Amelia

12,000 Late duke of Cumberland

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Late Queen's servants
Servants to late Queen of Denmark, and of
Princess Mary of Hesse

415 Cofferer of the houshold

97,295 Treasurer of the chamber

61,362 Master of the great wardrobe

20,219 Master of the robes

4,124 4 3$ Maiter of the horse

18,000 Paymaster of the works

48,877 9 Foreign miuifters

87,291 8 Great officers

25,287 7
Judges and officers attending courts of
justice

29,925 6
Clerks of the council 1000 l. office.
keeper 911. gs.

1,091 5
Officers of the ceremonies

521 13 Gentlemen of the bed-chamber

14,950 Grooms of the bed.chamber

5,951 Kings, &c. at arms

513 6 Officers of the order of the bath

500 | Serjeants at arms

1,001 Commissioners of trade, &c.

9,854 Officers of the board of works

304 Officers of the ordnance

480 5 Keepers of houses, parks, &c.

7,464 13

31 Officers of divers natures

11,173 6 3 £ Officers of the receipt of exchequer 2,701 (Officers of the court of exchequer 2,873

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3 Pensions and annuities, by Lord Gage

55:078 15 Sundries, as of his majesty's free gift and royal bounty

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