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not. I went, efternoon, out to the feilds with Lorn. He told me they had a mind to se Neubrugh conjunct secretar with Latherdaill. We obserud the —." 12.-Sir Jh. Stracquhan din'd with me. I went, efternoon, with my Ladi Balcaras to the burial of Mr. Tailour; and heard Dr. * preach: Revelations 2, “Be thou faithful unto the death, and thou shal hau a croun of lyf.” Oh! sermons, and sights of death lit enter or work upon my hart. I desir to bewail my barennes. Such honest, faithful, and able men taken away, and I not considering or laying it to hart. 13.—I saw Sir Tho. Cuningham, and he told me of the E. of Sandwitch his engadging at Algiers, and his loss. I did, efternoon, see the Inner Templ, Templ Barr, Gray's Inn, and Lincoln's Inn; and heard of the King's proclamation ament the setling of Bishops in Scotland, and aresting rents belonging to them. I did not see ani appearanc of outgat as yet to myself and my poor brethren, nor a dore opend for my return. Therfor I look up to God. Lorn sup’d with me. I receau'd letters from Duffus, and the bil from Joseph. 14.—I heard Bishops wer set up in Scotland: the rents that did belong to them arrested. Oh! I am dull, slow to understand, and farr of from God. I was feard that the pleasur of profan Histori should expel the loue of Scriptur, and that which is diuin. I besoght the Lord against this snare. 15.-Die Dom. . . . I heard that yesternight wer 20 bodies raisd out of Westminster [Abbey], and buried without the Kirk : Dr. Tuiss," Dr. Strong, Mr. Marshal, &c., by the King's command." That ther cam a voice to one at Court thris, giuing him command to rise, repent, or els he should be sudenli destroyd. I was exercisd with the consideration of my weaknes, ignoranc, infideliti. . . . 18.-I went to London, and saw varietie of creaturs for delight and accommodation, and desird to use al things aright; for I am readie in evri thing to sin. I saw the defect and weaknes of my parts and induments, and desird to be humblå and be content, and to glorifi God with thes gifts he hath vouchsafd, for accordinglie would he requir, and not according to what I had not. It's grace, and not gifts, that he looks to. Oh! for grace to know and glorifie Thee as God. 19.-I was cationer for Mr. Wm. and Sir Jhon Cheislie for 209 ft). sterling: and did this unto the Lord, and bound to be sencibl of his troubles, and as being liabl to troubl my self. I desired to be dulie affected with the corruptions of our ..a What can we look for qhuil it is thus? We hau no help, but our eys ar towards God. Mr. Wm. Cheisli told me of a Captain Constoun, a sea captain, that had fortold mani things * Bishops in Scotland or England befor 1664: January or March: Monk should * I desird not to lay much * but to obseru and committ all to God. 20–I went to London, and saw the Savoy, the Sutton's Hospital, and books. My nephew was unweil, and I had som fears of him. I heard from Cassills that .* I obserud the Lord's hand in it, laying impediments in sour way], and disappointing. Lord! turn it to good, and let not anger be in it for thy nam's sake ' I spok with the E. of Midltoun, and apprehended that .* I desird to withstand thes thoghts, and acknowledg the Lord in it. 21-I was doubtful if this day I should giu my * signature to Latherdaill and Crafourd. . . . I obserud in my self a great desir of knowing natural, moral, historical things; and was readi to admir them that had great induments in thes things; yet I perceaud that I had none, and my memor retaind nothing, nor did I conceav mani things I read. I desird to be humbld under this, and to be content with my measur. 2. The Lord requirs according to what we hav, and not according to what we hav not. 3. Ther is wisdom, and I hop mercie, in keeping me low; for if I had ani thing I would be soon puft up, and be fild with conceit. 4. Uprightnes is better then witt, learning, gifts, or the knouledg of al natural, or moral, or historical things. 5. A good understanding hav they that keip Thy commandments, and they will mak wise; and that's the wisdom which I seek.

* Short-hand in MS. * The Royal Warrant is dated White* Name blank in MS. hall, September 9, 1661. See Collectanea * Dr. William Twisse, an eminent and Topographica Britannica, vol. viii., p. 152, learned Nonconformist divine, who was chosen Prolocutor of the famous Westminster Assembly.

* Short-hand in MS.

I besoght the Lord that the E. of Morton's buisines may be noe snar to mak me sin. Oh! help me throgh this short cours off my lyfe. My desir was to the Lord to ridd me of this place. It is a place I have noe fellowship in. 2. I am in noe particular calling. 3. I am doing noe good in it. 4. I desir to be restord to thes I am tied to, for the Lord's glorie. That he may be serud by us ther. 2. That I and they may be helpd, one of another. 3. Comforted one by another: and in all thes respects I submit my will to God. 23–I thought to hav acquainted E. Midltoun that I had giuen the signatour to Latherdaill; and aprehended they had bein at one, but found otherways and missd him. I reuerenc the Lord's prouidenc. I met with Mr. Lighton, and he exprest much of a tender disposition. Oh let it not be a sin or smar to him He said ther was not that differenc betwix Psts. [Papists] and us as to put us to excommunicate and condemn, judg, and persecut one another: we might forbear one another. He said ther was as much for the sask]cloth, as for the surplice. He had a great latitud. Lord deliuer him from snares! I found my inordinatnes in reading Lucan. I saw the Lord's hand in chaunging gouernments, raising and bringing doun ; and albeit we be readi to judg and censur the Lord and his ways, yet they ar al right. But neither ar our affections nor our judgment right. 24.—I saw E. Midltoun, and my hart chalengd me for saying to him that I found ther was som stopp, and that som had carpd at the word Assignais. I should hau said nothing to the hurt of ani, or to irritate. I desird to be burthend with the humours, factions, prid, and passions of men. I commended the cace of the land to God that was in such a cace: rent betwix them. E. Twedal subscriming the act of Councell for Bps. [Bishops]: men would mak al sure. I blest God from my hart that had mercifulli kept me out of employments; for alace the snares that they fall in. Lorn din'd with me. I heard from him what past betuix the King and the 2 Lords anent Twedal. 25, 26.-I heard that Twedal was set at liberti, and confind to his oun hous. I acknowledgå the Lord in this; and in ani favour or ground of hope that Lorn had from the King quhom he met with. I heard also that Crafourd had gotten the sole commission for the Excyse. I saw the uncertanti and unstablnes of all human effairs. . . .

At this day ar we not in danger by the prid, ambition, covetousnes, lusts, and injustic of men to be broken, and torn, and destroyd. I did goe and see seids, and enquir for trees, and other things that I had som desir to hav. 27.-I din'd with Lorn, and help'd his signatur. He was with me at night. . . . I heard Sir An. Ker and Neutoun wer put in prison at Edinburgh. 28–I was soght by thes in

,” L. Forbes, Sam. Leving[stoun), and * yet I found my self much straitnd towards them. Lord inlarg and guid me in Thy love, and loos my bands: and Sam. Levistoun. I went to the feilds in the evening with Calder. I found that al thes places and pleasurs can afford me litl contentment in respect of home. Lord! should not Thy presenc then content much mor, and draw my longing efter Thee? 30.—I saw the great heate and animositie betuix Midletoun and Latherdaill, and besoght the Lord to remov it, and, if not, that He would bring forth good out of it, and in His wisdom ordour it for His glorie, and the good of this peopl, and the poor land. I found difficultie to carie among them with uprightnes, and simplicitie, and due discretion, and wisdom. Let the Lord ordour my steps, and what concerns me. This day the Sweds Ambassador had his entrie, and I observd sin, vaniti, and ungodlines in the contest betwix the Ambassadors of Spain and Franc. Railing and blood was lett in the mantenance of ther humour. I desird to be humbld under this, and to reaceav instruction by it. I heard Mr. Lighton inclind to be a Bishop, and did obserue his loos principils befor anent Surplic, Ceremonie, and Papists. I desird grac to discern what to judg of this, and if the Lord cald me to speak to him or not. Their appeard nothing of my own buisines a doing. I desird to reuerenc the Lord's wisdom, and to be guided and stablist in his way. October 1.— . . . Kirkmichel was with me, and desird me to lend som money to Sir Da. Cuningham. I was doubtful what to doe, not knowing whither it proceeded of design or not. I lookd up to God for councel, and saw noe ground to yeeld to this proposition, and therfor laid it by. I din'd with ——," and efter dinner missing thes, I went to visit. I went to the Tour, saw one of them dead who had bein the day befoir kild in the contest betwix the Spainard and French: heard that the watermen wer conducd by the Spainard, and helpd him. I weighd what to doe anent the patronag of Kinlos, and desir to be guided in it. I warnd .* I found indisposition on my spirit to the drawing near to God; and under al my exercises desird in His light to se light, and wil wait for Him. And I writ my letter to Scotland by D. Stewart. 4.—I spok with E. Midltoun and Chancellor, and found my L. Mortoun's buisines ticle; and his professd freinds not sure to him. I told Crafourd that the signatour was to be broght into the Council . . . I was desird by Sir Da. Cuningham to help him with money, and I knew not what to doe. Therfor I lookd to God for direction, and purposd in my hart to follow him in it soe far as he would giv light, and direction, and strenth. I went for this end to London, and boght som histori books, but nothing of diuinitie. This feard me that I was withering, and I desird to search. Oh! the studi and knouledg of the one thing necessar, and the use of al means to that end, is that which should be cheife. 5.—Sir Rob. Muray" counseld me that E. Athol should get the fyne of my freinds. I desird direction, and lookd to God. I heard the King was raising forces to Tangier in Africa. I read the undertaking of the King of Franc against Naples, his success, the chang of it, and in a short tym loses al he had wonn: craft, malic, doublnes, drivs men to counsels, which thogh men hop to preserv themselus therby, yet destroys them. Oh! it is a miserabl cace to be in subjection to ani lust. 6.—Die Dom. . . . I did goe in to the Abay Kirk, Westminster, and heard the Sub-dean, Dr. Helen," preach the Real Presenc, but did not explain it. I saw the superstition, bouings, external gesturs, heard ther singing, liturgie, affectation in vesturs, kneeling at the altar, bouing to the elements. Thesar things which pleas not God; they ar man's: and let man hau neuer so much esteim of his own inventions, they ar not com

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* Sir Robert Murray was a great favourite numerous works, was a learned English with Charles the Second. He was made divine and historian, but no friend to the Lord Justice Clerk in June, 1667. His Puritans. He died in 1662. counsels inclined to moderation.

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