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Wm. Brodie, to walk mor soberli and holili, and in a senc of his own. unworthiness, and to be litl in his own eys; and begd that the Lord would open his eys to shew him how unclean he was: and to be mor patient in bearing injuries and wrongs at the hands of others: and to tak reproofs in good part: and the glori of God should be deir to him as his lyf. So Jhon Dumbar, to studimor for knowledg, and be diligent in the use of al means that may lead him to the understanding of the misteri of godlines: against sloth: he should never be in the plac wher God's nam was dishonourd but he should zealousli testifi against it. Will. Innes acknowledgd corruption, and promisd throgh the Lord's grac to endeavour to be mor aquainted with the evel of his own hart, and to be litl, and low, and vil in his own eys, and to studie patienc and humilitie, and that the glori of God shall be deer to him. Sir Robert did undertak for himself and his servants to instruct, and admonish, and watch over them, and to engadg them to the Lord, and stir them up to repentanc, and for his wyf. My Son acknowledgd his sin was mor than al; for non had such means of knowledg; non had been so oft and solemli engadgā to the Lord: this is not his first vow to God, and therfor took shame to himself for his forgetfulnes and slaknes, and promisd himself of new to be the Lord's, and to walk mor closli with God then ever. Sicklyk Margarat, and to be mor diligent, watchful, and serious in following the Lord. My Mother acknowledgd that she had not been so exercysd this day as was requisit; the sins of children and servants wer hers and myn in so far as we did not hinder it, and punish, and mourn for ther sins: she promisd to have more regard to the honour of God then ever. . . Oh that ther wer such a hart in them | But alacl so soon as they wil forget, and fal away: so litl root has thes engadgments on the hart' 13–I heard that that wretched woman Janet Fraser, and Isabel Tori, had even within few hours efter their engadgment, at least the one of them, broken out in execrabl passion and violent cursing. For this caus, not knowing how to help this, I purposd, if the Lord would, to rid me of them,

and thrust them away.

-[One or more volumes of the Original Diary appear to be lost, embracing a

period of nearly five years, between October 1656, and July 1661.]

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Juli, 1661.-I was straitnd what to doe with Lothian anent my a I was wearie of this place exceedinglie. But it is my station and lot for the present. I visited Sir Ja. Stewart, and Sir Jo. Cheislie, and [we] worshipped God together. We spok anent the oath of allegiance, and the power of the civil magistratin Ecclesi., and the Parl. 1612 and 1617 7.—L. Duffus told me that Lorn was restord to his honour and estat. Now my soul desird to bless the Lord for this, and I desird to understand it, and profit by his increas, that God heard our prayers and had visited that familie. Let it be for thy glori and the good of thy church. 9.—Besid this, I heard that ther had something fallen out betuix the Town off Forres and my uncle Francis with his sone. All this coms upoun me, and on my father's hous, as tokens yet of moranger, and that “the Lord's wrath is not turnd away, but his hand is stretchd forth still.” And yet further, heard that M*Leud was lyk to prevaile, and M*Donald, against my friends; and under this I desird to be exercisd. 11.-The matter of my friends and ther proces was delaid to the next Parliament. The ministers wer set at libertie: I desird to acknowledg the Lord in this. . . . - 12.—The Parliament was adjournd. I met with much violence from Tarbet in the matter of my freinds; and I desird to look up to God under it, and comit ther caus and myn to Him. 13.−The Commissioner" took journey to London. I did tak leave of him, and reaceaud manie and larg expressions off his kindnes: But Lord keep me from trusting in man From him Cromartie told me that I was too long agoing to the King ; and if I cam he should not fail me. I was desirous to know his mind to me, so this was the return I had. 15—I reaceaud a letter from Cassils, desiring me to com up, and sheuing that the King had prejudices at me, yet that it was best for me to goether. This, with the pressurs of my freinds buiseness, inclind me to goe, as being a cal from God; for albeit I might, and was willing to be under the King's displeasur (if it seemd good unto the Lord so to exerceis me), yet the Lord allows and commands me to seek the removing of it by all lawful means, so farr as is possible. Therfor in obedienc of the Lord's wil, I am bound, as to seek and keep peac with al men, so especialli with my dread souerain, the Lord's great suprem vicegerent, officer, and anointed: so that now I depend on God for a blessing as well as for allowanc. Many impediments and discouradgments have I in my way, of the ill wil of men, ther dislyke, my uncourtilnes, want of acquaintanc. This night I dreamd that being with the King I had no countenanc; yet I may not lean to dreams; and albeit it wer so, I sin not in undertaking my dutie. 16.-Sir Ja. Cuningham, took journey: I desir to comitt his undertaking to God. 17.-I did see Mr. Douglas and Mr. Hutcheson, and desird to know whither in ani thing I could be usefull; but as they did not see much, no mor doe I see that I can serv for ani use. I purposd to set to if the Lord did permitt, on the 20th Julie, in the faith of the Lord's providenc, and care, and presenc, and blessing, in what manner and measur he sees fittest. 20.-I did tak journey from Edr. to London, and cam to Heriot hous at night. I drew letters of recommendation from E. Calendar" to seuerals in my favours, and framd the letters myself, and was chalendgd for setting down ani thing to my own commendation, which in sight of God is not true, as that I should be a person of integriti, and the lyk. I spok in the sens and opinion of other men of my self, not my own thoghts; for God is my witness, I conceau it to be fals, for instead of integritie, I [am] an unsound harted wretch, doubl, unstable, deceitful: shall I not mourn for this? How can I tak such a testimoni from others of myself? Let this be no snare to me, for the Lord's sake; and ere this wer sin, I had rather be without the letters: and I lookd to God. I desir to tak Thy way, and noe other; and if ther be ani thing that's not approven by Thee, keep me from making use of it. 21-I cam to Stow kirk to sermon, and Torwoodlie at night . . . Anent my journey to London, I had fears and discouradgments anent the success off my friends buisines, and my own acceptance. First, It did in som measur content me that I was in the way of my dutie. 2. If I com back frie of snars, albeit without success, I shall aknowledg and ador the Lord. 3. God can bless and bring them and me also out of thes deip troubles, if it seim good to him; and I submit my cace to him, and thers, and depends upon his merci. Oh learn me to put my trust in thee! I am, alac l as a harlot or whoresh woman that wants but an offer: so easili will I yeld, nay, and cast myself into temptations, if God prevent not. 22.—I took journey from Torwoodlie: . . . Saw the E. of Lothian, and Mr. Leuingstoun at Ancrum. . . . I was guided by the E. Lothian's servant to his freind's hous at Sunisyde at night. I heard ther was something moud in the English Parliament anent a toleration to Poprie. Shall I not lament this? Let me not pass this by without observation. But thogh actuali it be tolerated, yet the Parliament did not a 23. I cam through the Fells, 14 long myls, to Alsbori, in England, and dind ther; and at night, to Durham, after I sent back the borroud hors from Newcastell. I saw a countrey full of grass, plentiful in comparison of us; and acknouledgd God in it. I cam by Sir Wm. Phenick's hous of Wallingtoun; with Midltoun's and manie other. I found the Service Book generalli up, and usd. Mr. Hamond had com to preach in the morning, to his independent congregation. I remarkd the statli palaces of the Bish. of Durham, ther prebends and courts; and alac all his wealth, stat, and glori, mak litl to the honour of God; is litl pleasing to Him. * 24.—Being Wednesday, I cam from Durham, to Faribridg, and found my bodie discomposd, and wearied with travell I croced Tyn, Tees, Aire, Weeld, 25–Being Thursday, I cam throgh Turford, Newwork, Duncaster, Grantham, and at night, to Witham. 26 Juli—Being Friday, I cam from Wittoun to Stamford, and from thenc to Stiltoun, and by the hous of Burlie. At Stiltoun, I took coach, baited at Okenberrie, whylst Cader went forward by post towards London. I heard som of the ministers at Stamford did not conform, nor read the . Service Book; most did. Thus I saw a larg beatifull countree, not straitned with the pouertie that

* Short-hand in MS. King's Commissioner to the Scottish Par* The Earl of Middleton, who was the liament which met January 1, 1661.

* Alexander Livingstoune, first earl of ment,” and was excepted in Cromwell's act Callendar. He was next in command to the of grace. After the Restoration he was in Duke of Hamilton in the famous “Engage- great favour with the Court.

* Apparently something wanting in MS. to complete the sentence.

my nativ soil was under. I desird to consider and understand this. Thus I traveld throgh Northumberland, York, Durham, a part of Notingham, Lincoln, Rutland, Huntingtoun, Bedford. Mamie thoghts haunted me, fear of the success of my journey, and buiseness with the king. . . . I met Sir Ja. Hacket” at .” He told me how much Sir R. Murray was burthend with thes things which the Parliament was doing, and that our euel proceeded from ourselus. I cam at night to Beaglsward," and was exercisd with manie vain, impur, sinful, violent imaginations. Oh how miserabl wers if the Lord gav me up to thes imaginations! I desird to look to the serpent hung up in the wilderness that I may be heald. 27.—Saturday—I cam by Sir Jhon Reid's park, and dind at Antfield" in Herfordshir, and saw the E. of Salisburi his fine hous," park, and winyard; and cam by Baldock on the Chalk, throgh Bernhard, Hiegat, Islington, and to London at night. The Lord did visit and refresh my spirit with som smal thirstings and desirs efter him. But, as to my particular in this voyage, has not reveald to me what He wil doe with us as to that ; and yet I desir to trust in him, wait, and be submitted to his will, albeit He not onli kept up himself, and held me in suspenc, but even thogh he should humble, and not grant my poor desire of acceptanc and deliveranc; for I must not cast off, thogh he tak a hard way, difficil, sharp and troublsom with me, and plunge into a thousand new difficulties. Oh! let him onli hold me up, direct my paths, accept of me, be my God, and I shall not complain. 28.—Die Dom. I was doubtful if I should goe to the publick worship. 1. Becaus I knew no part to goe to. 2. I desird not to be known; and the discouering of me untimouslie might doe me hurt, and preiudices might be raisd against me ere I was awarr. I desird to committ to God the clearing and inclining of my mind in this to doe his will. I desird to be learnd the dutie of the Saboth; the present duti of the tyme. I saw much vaniti, lightnes, wantonnes. Oh! that the seing of it in others may cure and mortifie the seeds of it in my self. God can mak use of poison to expel poison. I saw a mighti citi [London], numerous, mani souls in it, great plentie of

* Sir James Halket of Pitfirran. He * Blank in MS. took an active part on the side of the * Probably Biggleswade. Covenanters during the reign of Charles * Ampthill, in Bedfordshire. the First. * Hatfield House, in the same shire.

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