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lawfull 2. Good aims and affections cannot bear out, or be our rul in walking : onli His word must warrand. I heard they purposd to mak application to the English, both the one and the other, Protesters and assemblie men; and to quit praying for the King. This night I cam to Arnbrew [Aranbrae] neir Kilsyth. 8.—I cam in by Ricartoun. . . . I cam to Edinburgh this night. By another letter from the E. of Lothian, I thoght that he dispensd with my coming. I desird to worship and ador the Lord, and to enquir, whither I should tak this as the answer off my prayer. If it be, the Lord must keep me from sining against his ansuer, and giv strenth, and lift up the head that the patient may tak the medicin. I was perplexd anent the E. of Muray's fyn. 9.—Die Dom. I prayd in Wariston's famili yesternight. But oh! so litl solid grace for ther is much differenc betwix that and a gift of prayer, that passes lyk water throgh a spout. I heard of Mr. Jh. M'Culigan's" refusing or declining to accept the cal to Ireland: Provost Jafrey his desir that I should desist from Mr. Hari Forbes. Both thes I desired to spread befor the Lord, and to be directed in. Mr. Jhon Stirling preachd on Jh. xiv. v. 8, 9, “And Philip said, Shew us the Father and it suffices.” . . . Mr. Jh. Stirling afternoon on Hos. ix. 17, “My God shal cast them away, becaus they hearknd not unto him : and they shal be wanderers among the nations.” 11-I was enclind to goe to London, 1. Becaus it was informd and apparent that Lothian would deal perchanc for himself, and not for others. 2. He had mani things of his own to clogg him. 3. The E. of M. his buisiness. 4. It did so much concern me and my famili, and the opportuniti seemd fitting. I did from my hart seek the Lord in thes things, and did spread them befor the Lord, and desird a hart cleansd from sin and mixtur, and beleevd on his nam for light and grace; and, on the next day, I found the Lord had turnd away my mind from the voyage, wherin I adord and reverencil him, but desird yet further to understand, that I might find a solid ground to fasten my stay and resolution warrantabli upon. 1. The Earl's business I would essay what I could in this place. 2. Next, for my own I would comitt it to God, since ther was a probabl way of releef. I did visit Mr. Hutcheson, and Col. Lockhart," and Mr Guthrie. He did complain upon a will not subdud to close freeli with Christ and the gospel. Oh my wil is farr wors, and less compliant! Yesternight cam the Lord Browal,” [Broghill] President of the Counsel, in to Edinburgh. Ther appeard outward splendour in them and Swintoun. 2. I heard of som jelousies betwixt the President and the General. I desird to consider. The Ladie Loudoun desird me to goe with her to the General; and I desird, in consideration of her distress, to obey. 14.— ... I did goe doun to meet with Swinton, and he was going to coach, so that I found not occasion. I saw growth of outward statlines; this may be quhen the soul grows lean. I dind with the Ladi Loudoun. I wryt to the Earl of Cassils anent the new Covenant, and did giue him the grounds of my unclearness; yet I, from my hart, desir a hart engadgd to God in euri commanded dutie which it contains; and dar not slight the matter off relying on, and giving up our selus of new to the Lord, and laying bonds on my own soul to personal duties of pietie and chariti, and use of al means and ordinances: wherin I am dark, I desir to wait and beleeu on his nam for light. 16.-This was a Fast and humiliation under the great excessiue rains, which threatnd to destroy the earth, and fruits thereof. Mr. Lauri" lecturd on Is. 58, and shew[ed] formalitie was the great sin for which the land was to mourn, so ryf was it in the land. Mr. Stirling lecturd; and Mr. Andro Gray" preachd Pro. x. 4, “The hand of the diligent maks rich.”

* Mr. John M. Gilligen was afterwards Bass. After the Revolution he became minister of Foddertie, in Ross-shire. He minister of Inverness, where he died June was ejected for non-conformity in 1662, 8, 1689. (Wodrow’s History.) and was imprisoned several years on the

* Colonel William Lockhart. He was • Mr. Robert Laurie, one of the ministers

at first an ardent royalist, and was knighted
by Charles the First in 1643; but he was
afterwards gained over to the service of
Cromwell, by whom he was made one of
his Lords of Session. His second wife was
a niece of Cromwell's.
* Roger Boyle, fifth son of Richard, first
Earl of Cork. He was created Baron of
Broghill in 1628. Having been appointed
by Cromwell, President of the Council in
Scotland, he came to Scotland where he
remained during a part of the years 1655
and 1656. (Baillie's Letters and Journals,
vol. iii., pp. 316, 321.)

of Edinburgh. He was the only one of the
ministers of the capital who conformed to

Prelacy after the Restoration. He was
made ho of Edinburgh, and afterwards
Bishop of Brechin. He died in 1677.

(Keith's Historical Catalogue of Scottish
Bishops, p. 168.)

* Mr. Andrew Gray, son of Sir William Gray, Provost of Edinburgh, was minister of the Outer High Church, Glasgow. He was ordained November 3, 1653, and died early in the year 1656. (Wodrow's Analecta, vol. i., p. 168.)

17.-I heard Mr. Douglas,” xl Ps, 5, 6, 7. . . . I dind with Swintoun, and saw something of outward glorie passing; it wil have a tym and period. I desird not to be taken with it. Bringing business to pass wil draw me to compli farr with men Oh let not this be a snar to me ! 18.—Mr. Andr. Gray preachd on that sam text, Ps. x. 4. The Lord Warristoun his son James, was baptizd; being born on Saboth befor the 16th. Mr. James Guthrie and Mr. Stirling was with me. We spok and conferrd on Christian reproof, and the use and necessiti of it. 2 We spok of that word, Phil. iii. 15, 16, whither ther was not a season for silens as weil as for speaking. They held that from ani thing wherof they wer convincó that it was a dutie, we could not lay restraint or bands on ani to hinder them from speaking We prayd for light in his own caus. . . . The Lord seemed not to be farr of from my soul. But going forth to see the Lord Browal [Broghill]" and the Lord Howard, I fell in a necessiti to convoy and accompani them up the way, to the offenc, I fear, of mani. This I desire to consider, and to enquir into, and to see iff my visiting or my cariag was sinful, and to be instructed. Oh for grace! This day I did again enter in Covenant solemnlie, and gav in my nam, consent, subscription, and acceptanc of the Lord Jesus to be my head, lord, husband, guid, my al in all. Being required by Mr. Andro Gray, in the Lord's nam, to declair if I would refus or not? I said, Befor the Lord I could not refus, but with my hart gave over my self, poor, miserable, sinful, weak, ignorant, as I am, to God in Christ, to be His. Litl use can he mak off me; but if he can, His am I, and shall I be totalli, perpetualie, throghlie, if he wil be at the charge to maintein, confirm, mak good, and perfeit his work in me. . . . . I spok with Mr. Rob. Douglas 1. He said our land was not for a deliueranc; litl could be made of it, so corrupt and sinful wer we, our nobles, great ones, and al estats; and, till we wer mor fitt, he neither could expect nor beleeue ani outgat. 2. He professed, he thoght praying for the King, moe such necessarie matter as to quitt ther ministrie for it; yet the humours of the people was such, that nothing could pleas them unless they should quitt ther ministri for it, and when he was clear he thoght that noe ground to stand upon. 3. He said, that he mouvd as an overtour of peac, that ane Assembli might be cald, by advertizing the Presbytres to choos commissioners, without respect to ani former limitations or differs; and honest men onli; that thes men that wer censurd should not be chosen, but, at the dounsitting of the Assemblie, be declard ministers of the Church of Scotland; and that ther protestation should stand against the Assembly, onlie to be taken up in so farr as concerns the constitution off assemblies; that they may know what to stand at. 4. He declard, he was as much for purging out of corrupt, naghti ministers as euer; onli, in respect of thes differs, he thoght it dangerous to giue full power to Commissioners of the Kirk, except in the case of delations, onli to trie, visit, and report. He took the Lord to witnes of the sinceritie of his hart to hau an honest, holi ministrie, and to be rid of maghti men; he approud al that euer was don in Scotland against such, and would be as readie as euer to put out, and hold them out; onli he differenced Mr. Will. Coluil" from the common sort, who was of a mor blameless and painful conversation. 5. He durst not seek a General Assemblie presentlie from the English, especialli till they wer at one with ther brethren; nay, and then, they would tak noe mor but ther permission to com together. . . . Mr. D. Dickson did visit me. He told me, they wer resolud not to put praying for the King in ballanc with ther ministrie. He labourd to clear, and to vindicat the Assembliministers from the things they wer chargd with; and did tak the Lord to witnes of their caus, and affections, and desirs, and sinceriti, in seeking to purg out the corupt, unsufficient ministers. My hart, when I spok to him of thes things, was micle movd . . . I did efter supper visit Coll. Witham and Collonell Scroop, and did exhort them to express and shew that they wer com heer for the good of this broken people. They profesd and promisd to indeavour it. They said, it would tend much to this, iff honest men would accept imployments. I replied, the Lord had found us so unworthi to rule, that he had left us non off our own to gouern, nay, or were fit to gouern, nay, som out of the sence

* Mr. Robert Douglas: who was admitted (Extracts from Records of Synod of Fife, second minister of Kirkaldy in 1630, and p. 232.) was translated to Edinburgh in 1641. * See foot-note " p. 154.

* Mr. William Colville, minister of the Synod of Lothian in 1655. (Baillie's Tron Kirk, Edinburgh, who was deposed Letters and Journals.) He was afterwards by the General Assembly in 1648, for not minister of Perth in 1655, and Principal of preaching against the so of the the College of Edinburgh in 1662. Engagement. He was restored by the

of this thoght themselus incapable off ani such trust quhil they liud. I laid forth the grouth of Poperie. 2. The contempt of disciplin. 3. The heavie taxes that wer upon us; and desird that we might se som redress in al thes. 20–I did meet with much discouradgment in my nephew's buisines, and in the Earl of Murray's. My spirit was disturbd and disquieted with it. Seing algoe so croceli, I was bidden mak application to the Lord Protectour. I desird to consider this, and whither I should goe, or advis the Earl to goe. . . . Hopton and Huntli dealt with me, and others also, anent accepting imployments. Oh for direction and grace Oh for light, and couradg, and strenth ! I purposd not to medle. I spok to the President" of Public Burdens; but litl feeling had ani of it. 22.-I saw something of the bondag and servitud of the poor land, and of ther oppression that ruld us, and ther usurpation, and lusts, and heard of ther corrupt ways. I desird from my soul to be humbld under al the wrath of God, and our provocations which had kindld the Lord's anger against us, and our rulers, and judges; for, as we hau don, so does the Lord to us. Our bands and complaints of arbitrari ruling ar the sam that befor; as unbounded power does he [Cromwell] exercyse as euer did ani befor. I heard of L. Hari Cromwel his being sent to Irland; the calling away of Monk; the design of Jamiaca, quher the gold was. I desired to stoup and worship the Lord who is Souerain Lord of Lords, and euer ruls the courses and counsels of men. Desborough * and Col. Lokhart's brother wer made joint Lord Register. Oh that I may be guided throgh! . 23.—Die Dom. West Port. Forenoon, Mr. Read; and afternoon, Mr. Gray, on Gal. vi. 3, “If ani man think himself to be something, quhil he is nothing, he deaceavs himself.” The Lord sent me a note from Mr. Rob. Douglas, anent refusing places and employments, even quhen they wer most advantagious. 2. And albeit pretended to doe good. Seal this on my hart, that I may be content of thy reproach mor then the alurements and baits of the world. Not but employments may sometyms be lawful and necessarie: only [not] now. 2. Quhen gain is the end. 3. Quhen accompanied with such snares. 25, 26–This 25th, at night, I cam to Torwoodley late. Litl good did

* President Broghill. was married to Cromwell's sister Jane. * John Desborough, Cambridgeshire, (Noble's Memoirs of the Protectoral House one of Cromwell's Major-Generals. He of Cromwell.) X

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