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of misery, in which he would find “no with great earnestness, to supplicate place for repentance, none for pardon the Throne of Grace in his behalf. I left.” My fears were too soon realized. complied with bis desire. I had finish The letter addressed to me, informed me ed, and had seated mself upon the bed of the fatal fact. I scarcely stopped to pearly overcome with oppression of read it through, and instantly hastened heart, when, turning towards bim, I to the prison; I cannot describe the saw his eyes lifted upwards, and 6xed in horror of the scene that presented a trance of fervor, in which he seemed itself. Upon a bed, in the apartment to be wbolly absorbed. His lips moved appropriated to the purposes of an hos- as he lay engaged in mental prayer, but pital, lay tbe ill-fated votary of this no articulate sound proceeded from world's false delights. The bed-clothes them. watched hina for some minutes, were covered with his blood, which, in when, suddenly discovering that I had spite of all the efforis of the surgeou to ceased to pray, he lifted bis head from staupeh it, still oozed from the wound the pillow, and seeing me seated by with which the poor wretch had pierced bim, he caught hold of my hand, and his throat. He had nearly divided the grasped it convulsively. The pain which windpipe. and all power of speech was the inotion of his head had occasioned, conipletely destroyed Wheo I ap- forced him to resume his former posproached him, he looked up, and shook ture, but he still retained his hold of his head. Never shall I forget the me, as if he dreaded to let go lest hp ghastly countenance, in which the ago. should sink for ever. It was with difpies of despoudeucy, remorse, and des. ficulty that I could command myself"; peration, were all combined in a ter- when, with a faultering voice, I entreatrific wildness that compelled me, for a ed him to be tranquil.-" I will come moment, to turo away my eyes. I again to you in a few hours,” said I, çould not bear to contemplate the when I hope in God you will be better shocking image of suicide. He strug. able to attend to me.” He lifted up gled with the attendants to get his hands bis. left hand and spread it upon his Loose, that he might prevent the sur- breast, by which I concluded that he geon from sewing up the wounded meant to convey a grateful acquiesparis: this caused the blood to gush cence in my design. I then gradually afresh; at length, however, he sunk attempted to withdraw my hand from fainting into that gentleman's arms, his ; but as I moved it, he pressed it who requested me lo withdraw for a more closely; and when I had sueceeded. few moments, until he should adminis. in disengaging it, he raised his own ter the miserable patient a composing aod let it fall immediately, unable to medicine, if he should be able to receive support its weight. it, upon his coming out of the fit. I left him with very little expecta.
I withdrew accordingly. When he tion of seeing him alive at the hour recovered from ihis state of insensibi- when I proposed to return. lily, he made signs that he wished to The time arrived, and to my great write; the materials were brought him; astonishment I found hisa sitting up in and he wroie the following words in a bis bed, supported by pillows. The hurried and scarcely legible charac- surgeon still continued with bin, under ter. “ For God's sake do not let Mr. the apprehension that a hemorrhage
go away-] wint him-I must would come on. As soon as the young see bim- bring bim back-1 will be, I man saw me, he beckoned to me to am more composed.” The surgeon's come near him; and writing upon a assistant came for me, and telling ine piece of paper, gave it me:-"O my that he feared tlie wound was too large dear sir ! My worlhy friend ! Comforter and deep to be efectually sewn up, of my soull do not-0 do not, I berecommended me lo be prompt in what seech you, let niy rash action be ever ever I wished to say or do, as he had imparted to my afflicted mother, should little doubt of bis going off in the next she regain her senses.” I promised it allack of faintness.
should be kept from her knowledge. He Į re-entered the rooin; the blood would have bowed his head to thank bad ceased to low, and his countenance me, but the stiffness of the wound appeared more calm and settled. He checked bim, He then agaio made pointed to a chair at the head of the signs for me to pray with him, and prebed, and clasping his hauds in an atti- pared himself to join me, by pulling tude of prayer, seemed to implore me his bands together. When my voice
ceased, be closed bis eges, and remained surgeon that he had slept for three perfectly still for near a quarter of an hours, and had awaked much refeshed, hour ; and then opening them again but that from the appearance of the full upon me, I was rejoiced to see that wound there was great cause to aptheir frantic stare was changed for a prehend that mortification bad taken mild and complacent gaze - a smile of place. I learnt also that he had emgrateful respect reposed upon bis ployed nearly two hours in writiog lips ; and he again too my hand, but
a letter to me. When I went to bim, with less force than before. His pres. be bad the letter in his hand; he sure was gentle, and repeated at inter- held it out to me, and putting it into vals. He laid bis other hand upon it, mine, again had recourse to the dice and for the first time since the dreadful tionary ; and pointing to the word deed he shed tears. As they rolled resignatiou," I said " I would have down his cheeks, the surgeon carefully it so.” wiped them off, that the dressings might He sbook his head, and put his finnot be disturbed by his own effort to ger upon the word "rejected.”. I then do it.
understood that he felt bis resignation I took this opportunity of rising from might be rejected, as he had attempted the bed to depart, when, taking a dic to take away his own life. I asked him tionary, which he had requested in writ. if this was what he meant? He pressed ing might be banded to him, he turned my hand in assent.--"If you feel reover the leaves to find the priucipal signed, it is the effect of your repentwords by which he might convey his ant consciousness—The wound wbich meaning to inc. By the means of this you bave inflicted upon yourself, was expedient, the following communica- the result of despair; but resignation tion took place between us :
is the companion of hope. You resign “ Can I be forgiven? Is there any yourself to the merciful goodness of hope for such a sioner as myself? Ó jour GOD - You acknowledge your speak! you are a minister of God! Dare vowortbiness—You rely on the interyou bid me hope?"
cession of your Redeemer-You abbor “ Yes, I dare bid you trust in the the iniquities of your life-You abjure Divine Mercy, if your repentance be the infidel principles which actoated bincere."
you to neglect every religious duty“ How can I know that my repen. You shudder with the deepest contri. lance will be accepted ?"
tion at the deed of self-destruction “ You have the warrant of your Sa You repulse every idea of self-justificaviour's words to justify your bope tbattion-You cast away every plea--every it will be I am cone to seek and to arguurent which the unbeliever has adsave those that are lost.?”
vanced in defence of suicide. The * Ah! I fear I am lost for ever!” death you bave sought, you now dread
“ Not so! God is the judge! He as likely to deprive you of everlasting looks upon the beart; and as Ke alone life. * Do i interpret your mind can judge of the sincerity of your peni. arighit?". tence, te alone can give you hope of He turned over the pages of the dicforgiveness.”
tionary with haste, and put bis finger “O my kind friend ! could I die in on the word, “ Yes," then upon that this bope, I have no desire to live.” of “Believe"_" Saviour"." Eter
'" Do not mistrust the Power and nal"_" Blessedness." Will of your God and Saviour. Even "Well, then, you would have me pow he has touched your soul with con conclude that you die in this belief," viction that you require his forgiveness. He placed his hand upon his breast, Meditate upon this conviction until I and raised his eyes to heaven. see you to-morrow, and in the mean I then told him, that he was now in while I comipend you to His Grace and the hands of his Almighty Creator, and Mercy."
I committed bim to his disposal, imHe then closed the book, and signi- ploring a sentence of mercy for his fied to the attendants that he would lie. soul. down again. I bade him adieu, which He stretched out his right hand tohe answered with a look of assent. wards me, and liftiog his left to his
On the morrow | repaired to him head, I saw that the surgeon's apagain, I found by the report of the prehension was realized. A dron.
siness was already come upon him; of the man may incline the minister and tbe short convulsive twitches of the towards the milder course of admibody, which usually precede dissolution nistering consolation to the patientwheo mortification takes place, became but the godly faithfuloess of the chris. more frequent. At last, a general in- tian guide forbids bim to temporize sensibility spread itself over his whole with the justice of heaven. It is true, frame - The hand that I had taken be calls to mind wbere it is written that fell lifeless upon the bed ; and an in. “ mercy rejoiceth against judgment,” ward groan was the last symptom of life but with the ackoowledgment of the that shewed itself. The next moment one he is constrained to bleod the conhe was numbered among the dead ! victions of the other, apd be knows
I returned to my house smitten with there is no intermediate alternative. In grief, and subdued by the sad specta- the case before mel beheld a young man, cle wbich I had wiloessed. I know not, who, from the earliest period of exiodeed, a more difficult, or a more try- panding intellect to the dreadful instant jug, duty of the pastoral office, than that of self-murder, had given the reins to which calls him to the death-bed of the his passions, and bad unhesitatiogly self-murderer. In instances of insavily, violated the purest principles of moral, the question is not left to his decision; social, and religious restraint-the probut in those which the overwhelming bigate notions of the libertive, and the force of disappointed pride and enfuri corresponding insolence of the infidel, ated passion produce, the responsibility had supplanted every just, honourable, of a spiritual counsellor is fearfully ini. and pious feeling of the beart; the plicated -- He is conscious that he dares most lamentable consequences ensued, not inculcate an unqualified hope, and and even before he bad conteniplated he feels that it is not for man to con- the probable issue—for it is repugnant siga bis fellow-creature to condemua- to humanity to suppose, that, bad this tion and despair-He can only in such beedless criminal foreseen the destruccases wherein time is given, between tion which his guilt produced, he would the deplorable act aod the hour of have deliberately persevered in his evil death, excite the repentant reflections ways thal, could he have contemof the dying man to an abhorrence of plated, as the inseparable certainties of the rasbuess of the decd, and of the bis transgressions, a father's heart riven criminal pursuits which have led to it. in twain, and a mother's intellect over. Yet as it generally bappeus that, when turned by his inoplacable disobedience reflection returus to the perverted -a friend's wife degraded to infamy mind, it brings with it a profound re and contempt, and that friend himself gret at having prematurely cut itself murdered, by his licentious villainyoff from the continuance of life, it he would have deliberately arranged requires much pevetration to discover his plans to effect the progressive acwhether the penitence avowed be the complishment of deeds so full of horror genuine sorrow of a renewed heart : and perdition. But, of all the delusions aud ootwithstanding the most faith to which man is subject, those with ful efforts ou the part of the Minis- which bis own corrupt heart obscures ter to make this discovery, he is his judgment, are the most subtle and too frequently compelled to content destructive-“ So far I will
go, himself with recommending the wretch- fartber,” is the deceptuous persuasive ed offender to the Divine Mercy, with which he satisties himself at his and with assuring him that it is infi. first outset in vice. Vain, presumptupile, and extends beyond the contracted ous resolve!--Some other allurement liroits of human judgment still, he courts his senses, the gratification of trembles at the possibility of the af. which demands a farther forfeiture of frigbled soul's clinging to a presump- honour and virtue-this attained, anotuous dependence on ibe one band, or ther and another still succeed, until he on the other, sinking joto the sinful fiods himself so enveloped in the mazo despondency of a repulsive mistrust. of depraved enjoyment, that he loses It is a most afflictive strait, bolh for all power to retrieve himself hy retreat, the bewildered patient, and for him and he plouges forward with a despe. from whom he looks for comfort and, rate ardor, to some enterprize in ini. support in his last moments of remorse quity, which at once becomes the and dread. The bumane sympathies limit of his crimes and the cause of
their punishment. It is then that re them. I now subjoin the letter which fection returns, and his conscience the individual, whose death I witnessed, arms itself against him—that conscience put into my hands a few moments be which mighi have preserved bim, had fore his burthened soul sbook off the be listened in time to its seasonable maogled remains of inortality. And admonitions, now persecutes him with must fervently do I pray that it may maddening thought on what he has arouse the salutary emotions of earnest been, wbat he is, and what he might consideration in the heart of every have been. He now possesses no power youth who reads it, and so ipduce him, to remedy the past, no opportunity to before it be too late, to make the secure the future, and no escape from wiser choice of that path of life through the present. He feels that he is ac. whicle religion and virtue will guide his cursed by man, rejected by God, and steps in peace, unto the happy possess hateful to himself. The burden of re- șion of a glorious iminortalily. flection becomes too heavy for his mind
(To be continued.) to bear; weakened as it is in all its best energies, by a life of dissipation, and overwhelmed by self reproach, no
HISTORY OF PETER PLIANT. strength is left for endurance, uo forti. tude offers its aid to hold hi
(Concluded from page 400) neath the pressure of that retribution THERE is a sensitiveness in vico various shapes of personal disgrace, galion into its own designs, imparts a universal execration, aud a remorseful far greater degree of anxiety than any reminiscence, fruitless of every other existing obstacles which may impede ils consequence but such as leaves him in progress. The means generally resorted the forloro state of utter privation of io for the attainment of those designs, all good, and a desolate consciousness are invariably embittered by a restless tbit he suflers the deserved recompense feeling, arising from a consciousness of his iniquity, uopitied and disowned that our intentions are not in unison by all who knew him. He awhile sur with viriue. veys his condition-he looks around It has been observed, that the actual bim from the brink of the precipice on possession of an object confers not half which he stands—he sees the clouds of the gratification we receive ju the pur, darkness behind him, he hears the thun- suit of it, when our hopes and fears ders of wrath and judgment threatening keep the mind in coutimual suspense biu on all sides, even now the light- which suspense, when we are in the nings of divine vengeance burst upou pursuit of unlawful objecis, embitters his devoted head! No kindly refuge the very nieans we use to ailain them. presents itself-no friendly arm upholds Nor does the enjoyment of the object bim-no shelter, po defence, within his so altained alleviate tbe miseries enreach! In every blast of the storm dured in the search, but ratbor aggradenunciation astounds his ear. He yates them, and leaves a conscious. casts a look beneath him-a fathomless ness of its impurity lo lerrify by reflec. abyss yawn's to receive him.
tion. think no longer, he rushes upon the It was feelings of this nature which terrible alternative, and makes his banislied sleep from the eyes of Sir Ed. woes elernal!
ward; who, fearing some development But, Sir, I will no longer dwell upon of his intentions, kept a continual so melancholy a picture, which there is watch at bis window, and saw the return too much reason to fear, bears the por of Willian Somers with his intended traiture of the life and death of many victim. He now beheld all his hopes a self-destroyer, among those victims dashed to the ground, and bimself of a faithless world, abodiave sacrificed ruined in the eyes of those whose good a life of early hope and future promise opinion il was his interest to maintain. to the contaminations of the lawless Delay became dangerous; and while the and the vile, and have involved in the exbausted family were reposing from miserics of their fall, the happiness of the labours of the preceding evening, parents, and the consolations of all who he secretly left the house, and mounting have relatively or socially been upfor a horse, took tbe road to London, bay, tunately, allied to and connected with ing bribed a domestic to carry bis port.
manteau to the next town, from whence Sir Lionel entered, and having seen it might be conveyed tv the inefropolis. his sister conveyed to her room, turned
Little suspecting his intentions, and to me in a doubtful manner, and asked feeling it a duty no longer to conceal his if I kuew aught of the business. I base designs, I waited on Sir Lionel as then unfolded the purport of my comsona as rest had relieved my fatigue, lo ing, and expressed my astonishment acquaint him with the whole transac that Sir Edward should have thus tion.
escaped. My early appearance created asłon The Baronet still regarded me with ishment in the Baronet, who was sitting suspicion, which I was about to resent, at breakfast with his sister. I apolo. when a letter was brought in, the mes. gised for the unseasonable intrusion, senger of which rode off immediately and merely stated that I bad a few on its delivery ; it proved to be from words to communicate to bis private the contemptible Baronet, and run hearing when at leisure.
thus : “At your service," was the reply; but being in no hurry, I waited till the
“ Sir Lionel Thrifty may thank the repast should be over, and filled up the
officiousness of Mr. Pliant for the uatime by discoursing on our rastic enter. expected absence of Sir E. C. who gives ta:unicnt.
up all claim to the lands of his sister, “ My sister, here," said the Baronet, is only sorry that he is not able to comsmiling, " was in good humour with ply with the wishes of the family by an every one but the farmer's danghters, wnion with her. He is aware that his whom I fear made too great an en.
character will suffer by this step, but as croachment upon her privilege, and
he will be shortly in the centre of drew away all the attraction she meant fashion, where he will forget the cire for herself.”
cumstance, he cares not what interpre. . “ For shaine, brother!" returned
tations may be put upon it.”. Miss Thrifty, peevishly : “ you take a delight in misrepresenting me on all
“A pretty scoundrel opon my word ! occas10ns, I protest.”
Mr. Pliant, I thank you for your kind“ Nay, no words.-I'll pacify you ;” ness, and am sorry that I placed a wrong and, ringing the bell, he ordered the construction upon it; at any rate his servant to tell Sir Edward that break
riddance is forlunate ; for, as his views fast was waiting.
were interested, my poor sister would, * Sir Edward," resumed he, turning only have been a sacritice. However, to me, " is a sovereign cure for all
I must console her on this subject : and complaints, and the frown of anger will by pointing out the danger she basi gire piace to the smile or joy when our escaped, may perhaps alleviate a little redoubtable Barrnet makes his appear of her disappointment.” ance."
I left him to parsue his intention ; The servant returned with the intel. and all cause for secrecy being at an ligence that the door was locked, and end, repaired to farmer Heartley's' to no koucking could rouse 'him.
acquaint him with Sir Edward's abrupt “ Hey day,” said Sir Lionel; “ I departure.
Poor Maria uttered an exsuppose his fatigue has made more
clamation of joy at the news, as she than an ordinary impression upon him
feared some ill consequences might en-I'll see what I can do; and he left the
sue from her father's determination to room.
resent the injury. The farmer himself I could observe this account made received it at first with apparent corr., an instantaneous impression upoo the cern, obeerring, that it was well the Jackless Indy; who, notwithstanding coward had down, or he should have all the precautions of Sir Edward to the suffered for the outrage; but,” added contrary, bad imbibed a portion of jea- be, in an angry tone, " he may yet know lousy which was not a little heightened what it is to be in my power, and be by the present circumstance, and she shall be repaid for his villainy." sat a whimsical picture of doubt and
The village Rector entering at the fear, till the noise made by Sir Lionel moment, caught the farmer's angry in bursting open the door, and rather a glauce, and hearing the conclusion of vociferous exclamation of “ The vil the sentence, juded, from what bad Jain's goue !" prodirced a seream, and transpired in the village, the reason of she sans into a chair.
his wrath." Hoid!” interrupted be ;